week 2

Well I have been forgetting to blog but I have been thinking a lot - does that count??

Week 2 weigh in has just been completed and I lost 600 grams - which I am happy with, though I wonder if it is enough. Everyone else is losing heaps. I have been exercising consistently and although not following the exact meals on the plan I have been eating fairly lean and watching the calories. I think that a few too many bourbons didn't help.

So...my promise to myslef this week is to only have 2 drinks on saturday night, then NOTHINg for the remainder of the week.

I almost chucked it all in this week.....why?????? My husband is bipolar. He supports me in my weight loss/fitness journey 99% of the time. Being ex-Navy he has always been into his fitness and I have been the one who didn't like it...so now we train together (but I do it more frequently than him). He also has poor eating habits due to 22 years of life on a ship, having to eat whenever due to keeping watch on deck at odd times. Anyhow, he tends to miss lunch and often breakfast. Dinner is healthy but he then snacks a lot after dinner. he has no concept of portion size and will happily sit down with a large container of nuts and dried fruit and munch his way through it until he is no longer happy.
This is very hard for me as I CANNOT do that.

I wish he would take out what he needs to eat and put the rest away. When I asked him to do that the other night he lost the plot, stormed off, slammed doors and threw things around. he called me a control freak! I tried to explain the reason why I need him to do this, so that I can remain strong and reach my goals. All I wanted to do was to chuck it all in just to make it all go away.

I know that his reaction was a symptom of his mental illness but that doesn't make it any easier. He never apologises for his behaviour which also really PISSES me off.

So weigh in today had me 600grams down and I am happy...happy that I lost weight; happy that I didn't chuck it in.

I hope that I can keep doing this!

yep - it is friday and I am feeling very down and totally unenthused. Today is Pilates day and I normally look forward to this as it is a lighter fitness day than the others.

Today I didn't even get out of bed when the alarm went off. Pilates will be dome this afternoon instead.

I have been rattling along in my house alone during the day for 4 weeks now...as my husband works away in remote WA (and we live in Brisbane), and I think that I am getting alittle down about it all. I stopped my anti-depressants 8 weeks ago and although there have been days that I have felt grumpy I think all-in-all I have been coping well. I wonder if I should go back on them, though I really don't want to.

Hubby comes home on Monday night so maybe things will change then...some adult conversation would be nice.

Work is boring and I am totally uncommitted to it at the moment. I miss the challenging and stimulating job that I used to have. I need to create my own challenges within the job description, so maybe I will look online for some professional development to enrol in.

Well apart from that, I don't have anything else to say today.

Pilates will happen later this afternoon - I promise!

still going strong

The last couple of days have been good workout days. I have sore muscles but this hasn't stopped me from getting out of bed and doing my morning sessions with my 'paper based' version of Mish.

Karate on Monday night was good - we are going to grading in 2 weeks, so I will hopefully move up to yellow belt!!!

Today in my warm up I ran for 15 minutes without stopping at 8km/hr. so in 20 minutes I did 2.5km! The podrunner music at 156 bpm is great to keep me in the right stride and pace!

Diet is good. Had a glass of wine (well 2 actually) on Sunday and Monday nights...but that is all until next weekend!

Goals are set - so I am on the way to a new and healthier me.