week 2

Well I have been forgetting to blog but I have been thinking a lot - does that count??

Week 2 weigh in has just been completed and I lost 600 grams - which I am happy with, though I wonder if it is enough. Everyone else is losing heaps. I have been exercising consistently and although not following the exact meals on the plan I have been eating fairly lean and watching the calories. I think that a few too many bourbons didn't help.

So...my promise to myslef this week is to only have 2 drinks on saturday night, then NOTHINg for the remainder of the week.

I almost chucked it all in this week.....why?????? My husband is bipolar. He supports me in my weight loss/fitness journey 99% of the time. Being ex-Navy he has always been into his fitness and I have been the one who didn't like it...so now we train together (but I do it more frequently than him). He also has poor eating habits due to 22 years of life on a ship, having to eat whenever due to keeping watch on deck at odd times. Anyhow, he tends to miss lunch and often breakfast. Dinner is healthy but he then snacks a lot after dinner. he has no concept of portion size and will happily sit down with a large container of nuts and dried fruit and munch his way through it until he is no longer happy.
This is very hard for me as I CANNOT do that.

I wish he would take out what he needs to eat and put the rest away. When I asked him to do that the other night he lost the plot, stormed off, slammed doors and threw things around. he called me a control freak! I tried to explain the reason why I need him to do this, so that I can remain strong and reach my goals. All I wanted to do was to chuck it all in just to make it all go away.

I know that his reaction was a symptom of his mental illness but that doesn't make it any easier. He never apologises for his behaviour which also really PISSES me off.

So weigh in today had me 600grams down and I am happy...happy that I lost weight; happy that I didn't chuck it in.

I hope that I can keep doing this!