week 2

Well I have been forgetting to blog but I have been thinking a lot - does that count??

Week 2 weigh in has just been completed and I lost 600 grams - which I am happy with, though I wonder if it is enough. Everyone else is losing heaps. I have been exercising consistently and although not following the exact meals on the plan I have been eating fairly lean and watching the calories. I think that a few too many bourbons didn't help.

So...my promise to myslef this week is to only have 2 drinks on saturday night, then NOTHINg for the remainder of the week.

I almost chucked it all in this week.....why?????? My husband is bipolar. He supports me in my weight loss/fitness journey 99% of the time. Being ex-Navy he has always been into his fitness and I have been the one who didn't like it...so now we train together (but I do it more frequently than him). He also has poor eating habits due to 22 years of life on a ship, having to eat whenever due to keeping watch on deck at odd times. Anyhow, he tends to miss lunch and often breakfast. Dinner is healthy but he then snacks a lot after dinner. he has no concept of portion size and will happily sit down with a large container of nuts and dried fruit and munch his way through it until he is no longer happy.
This is very hard for me as I CANNOT do that.

I wish he would take out what he needs to eat and put the rest away. When I asked him to do that the other night he lost the plot, stormed off, slammed doors and threw things around. he called me a control freak! I tried to explain the reason why I need him to do this, so that I can remain strong and reach my goals. All I wanted to do was to chuck it all in just to make it all go away.

I know that his reaction was a symptom of his mental illness but that doesn't make it any easier. He never apologises for his behaviour which also really PISSES me off.

So weigh in today had me 600grams down and I am happy...happy that I lost weight; happy that I didn't chuck it in.

I hope that I can keep doing this!

yep - it is friday and I am feeling very down and totally unenthused. Today is Pilates day and I normally look forward to this as it is a lighter fitness day than the others.

Today I didn't even get out of bed when the alarm went off. Pilates will be dome this afternoon instead.

I have been rattling along in my house alone during the day for 4 weeks now...as my husband works away in remote WA (and we live in Brisbane), and I think that I am getting alittle down about it all. I stopped my anti-depressants 8 weeks ago and although there have been days that I have felt grumpy I think all-in-all I have been coping well. I wonder if I should go back on them, though I really don't want to.

Hubby comes home on Monday night so maybe things will change then...some adult conversation would be nice.

Work is boring and I am totally uncommitted to it at the moment. I miss the challenging and stimulating job that I used to have. I need to create my own challenges within the job description, so maybe I will look online for some professional development to enrol in.

Well apart from that, I don't have anything else to say today.

Pilates will happen later this afternoon - I promise!

still going strong

The last couple of days have been good workout days. I have sore muscles but this hasn't stopped me from getting out of bed and doing my morning sessions with my 'paper based' version of Mish.

Karate on Monday night was good - we are going to grading in 2 weeks, so I will hopefully move up to yellow belt!!!

Today in my warm up I ran for 15 minutes without stopping at 8km/hr. so in 20 minutes I did 2.5km! The podrunner music at 156 bpm is great to keep me in the right stride and pace!

Diet is good. Had a glass of wine (well 2 actually) on Sunday and Monday nights...but that is all until next weekend!

Goals are set - so I am on the way to a new and healthier me.

Well today is saturday and I get to sleep in - BUT at 6am just before the alarm (mon-fri) goes off I am already awake. So I lay in bed for another 90 minutes and then decide to get up and exercise.

Yesterday I downloaded some jogging tracks on to my iPod so I am keen to see what they sound like and whether they help me run consistently.

So I chose a 156bpm track and it works just beautifully at 8km/hr.

I ran for 20 minutes (quick walk to start and end included) and travelled 2.5km - Yay!!!! This I think is the kimberley world record so far.

Then I did some circuit fitness work and then 100 situps - man I hate them. My neck is hurting so I need to look for some advice on how to do them safely.

Then a 5 minute cool down at 5km/hr but incline 7.

Burnt 460 calories!

Another good effort. Pat on Back Kimba!

Yesterday I completed the pre-season tasks and wrote down all those excuses I have used for years.

This morning I did my Thursday week 6 toning session from 'Crunch Time' and thought back to those excuses when I came to the pushups section. I have a condition in my back which causes me to over-rely on my neck and shoulder muscles to do things. So pushups for me are really hard because of my neck/shoulders. I usually skip them because they are 'too hard'. But today I managed to do 5 on my toes and then 10 on my knees. Yes it hurt but hopefully I will build up strength so it doesn't hurt. Maybe someone with expertise can give me some hints on how to perform pushups without hurting my neck and shoulders?

Feeling very tired now after hard session. A bowl of porridge and a cuppa will hopefully help kick start my day!

Success! I did go and train last night…no excuses now.

I have my 20 year school reunion on July 10 and I am going to be looking good for it.

Trained this morning (fitness session, week 6 crunch time) and then decided after reading posts on 12wbt yesterday that I would see how long I could jog for. Aimed for 5 minutes (8km/hr) and actually managed to get to 10 minutes!!!! woo hoo.

Big milestone for me - because I HATE JOGGING

Start of Blog.

Never done a blog before so it will be interesting to see where this goes, and of course How I go (not just at the blogging but also this program)!
I think I am ready, though not cocky! I have been using Mish’s 12 week program that she has in her book ‘Crunch Time’ for the past 5 weeks now, so I think I am prepared for the 6 days a week thing, but I am certain that I am NOT prepared for her pushing me in reality. Until now I have simply been able to close the book if I wanted to.

I will talk to Mish during a session as if she is there (and even curse her at times) because I feel like she is there guiding me and pushing me…...So this can only be better. (scarier but better).

Haven’t trained yet this morning because my sensai punished me in a Karate session last night (I am only white belt - newbie) but he made me train with the other coloured belts last night (including blacks) which was intense and nighty scary. I must admit I didn’t feel comfortable during the session AT ALL…but I made it through. I now know that next time Sensai does this it will be hard, but hopefully not so scary!

I will train tonight before I take my daughter to her swimming lesson!

I will keep you posted.